Oh how much he must detest me now. It's difficult to get angry with someone you love, cos of not wanting to hurt that person. Especially when he lives in the same house. So much so that i find myself ready to forgive him when rationally i shouldn't. But it seems like i don't get angry very much anymore, much less get into conflicts. Ha imagine how much we argued. I think the frequency and intensity of those arguments really turned me off. However pissed off i feel, whether it's towards family or friends it's quite unlikely that i'll get into a heated argument... i think. And that sucks. 

Don't think he will read this, but i miss him so much ):