And I swear I will start studying. No more cramming in the week before exams. God. I still feel like stabbing myself everything the topic of results crop out. And run away because... That would mean I don't have to face anyone. I feel so worthless. I feel so lost. I don't know what I want, I can't imagine myself actually having an occupation in the future, I doubt I can live beyond 20.
Maybe my perceptions are too myopic. There are multiple roles in life, other than being a student. But what is making me so miserable is knowing that I've failed terribly as a friend and family recently. And reparations are nonetheless reparations. The amount of coal germany paid to western europe isn't going to change the fact that hitler killed 6 million jews during the war.
Moping is cathartic if there is an end to it.
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